It's hard

It's hard to write it down 
Really, I do this with a frown. 
For once upon a time, 
I almost wanted you to be mine. 

Deep down I knew it wasn't right
And I fought these thoughts with all my might. 
But since when do such complicated feelings 
ever follow strict and rational meanings?

It was and still is difficult to accept your decision 
And I nearly wished the whole situation was merely fiction.
But then I stop and reminisce the emotions between us
And I knew understanding your side was a definite must. 

It's hard to write this down 
And I tried to bury it in the ground. 
Despite the fact that my feelings for you were wrong 
I'm thankful for my guy who stayed by me all along. 

Time will be needed for this to heal 
For I was filled with turmoil a great deal. 
But I know I am a diamond in the rough,
And that I am definitely strong enough.